i've come to terms with myself recently.
i'm willing to move on into the present and to the future.
no longer dwelling in the past.
i'm not going to procrastinate no more.
i'm not going to cry no more
i'm going to work hard
and let the light of the Lord be shown through my work
i'm going to be a new person
i'm going to be His child.
i'm going to obey His every word
i'm going to let go of the un-worthwhile things that have been wasting my time
and start investing in more worthwhile things.
i'm going to offer myself to Him, as a living sacrifice.
ILOVEMYGOD.
rained @ 5:41 AM
i'm dreaming for you
i'm dreaming of you
i'm dreaming with you
i'm dreaming.
can't blame you
for thinking
that you never really knew me at all
i tried to
deny you
but nothing ever made me feel so wrong.
i know we got lost along the way
here i am with all my heart
i hope you understand
i know i let you down
but i'm never going to make that mistake again
you brought me closer to who i really am
come take my hand
i want the world to know
what you mean to me.
rained @ 5:19 AM
OMB!
exams are like 2 weeks away.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
arghhh.
i dont understand DNA
and some math
and THEORY
omb.
HELPP.
rained @ 5:18 AM
frankly, i dont really care what you become
what you aspire to be
what happens to you
i dont really care
frankly, i dont care
if you get knocked down by a bus
or if you get struck by lightning
or even better
attacked by rats
i dont care
frankly, i dont freaking care if you roll up into a ball and rot away in one corner
or if you plan to end your tragic sad life by jumping of a cliff
or, oh the joy, if you crawl at my ankles and beg for me to kill you
i dont freaking care
frankly, i dont care
if your going out with that slut
or if your best friend is doing drugs
or if your cat just got eaten by a llama
i dont care
frankly, i dont care
if your sister ate a bear
or if your brother smelted a donkey
or even if your cousin streaked through town nude
i dont care
frankly the only thing that i cared about
around you
was that you broke my freaking heart
you may say to me
angst-y much?
what-freaking-ever.
i dont care
all i care about
is that you broke my poor little heart.
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rained @ 7:36 AM
through these few weeks
i've really learnt what
the meaning of life is
what life means
what life symbolizes
how fortunate we are to have this little thing called
life
rained @ 7:12 AM
it may seem weird
when you look back
at me
you look straight through my eyes
staring deep down into my soul
i try to look away
but your piercing gaze
it locks me
it holds me into place
so that never
may i turn
and look the other way.
your hair
it shines in the sunset
as you steal away my heart
your eyes
your gorgeous eyes
they hold me in place
they hold me there
they hold me tightly
not letting me go
i try to turn my head
once
twice
three times
i finally break that hold
i finally break your gaze
you stare at me
confused
as if to ask
why
why
why
why did you refuse me
what did i do wrong
i never wanted to let you go
and yet
now you've broken free
you caress my face
softly and gently
i turn my back to you
you gasp in surprise
you thought that you could hold me there
forever
for eternity
i turn back silently
as i walk away from you
i wave back at you
you let a single
perfect
teardrop
fall
from your face
your face
torn with misery
anger
rage
and
...
...
sadness.
i could then tell
that you really had loved me
and i wanted to run
run back to your strong arms
screaming through the wind
that
i loved you
but i then remembered
that
i had left you
so i no longer loved you
the way i did
when i
first met you
when i first met you
i had said
i love you
now that i'm leaving you
i must say
i loved you
goodbye
rained @ 6:58 AM
do you know the feeling your supposed to feel when you first meet someone
or when you meet that someone again for the second time
or when you meet that person again after approximately um... THREE years
what are you supposed to feel?
what are you supposed to feel when you see that guy again
what are you supposed to feel when he makes you laugh like old times
what are you supposed to feel when he gives you that secret smile we always used to share
what are you supposed to feel when he
when he
when he
makes you fall in love with him
again
how are you supposed to feel?
how are you supposed to act?
what are you supposed to do?
what are you supposed to feel?
unanswered questions
they haunt my mind
along with
the images
of
you.
rained @ 6:53 AM
